Because I don't mattter

This was written when my husband was first showing signs of bi-polar.

Because I don't matter

I must be stupid to want to stay with you 
Sometimes you’re so horrible that I even hate you 
I've gone through hell and back just to be with you 
Remember all those nights I stayed to take care of you 
Of course you don’t because I don’t matter to you 

I’m sick of trying to make the mark 
I’m sick of crying here in the dark 
Don’t you understand that I feel so alone 
Don’t you know the pain of never knowing where’s your home 
of course you don’t because I don’t matter to you 

Here you go again talking about someone else 
Here you go again only caring about yourself 
Don’t you see all the pain in my eyes 
Don’t you see all the insecurity that in me lies 
Of course you don’t because I don’t matter to you 

Do you know what it’s like to see love in someone’s eyes 
Do you know what it’s like to see it turn to hate in the same night 
I try so hard to make you love me 
I try so hard to be what you want me to be 
I try so hard but you don’t love me 
Of course you don’t because I don’t matter to you